This Past Month…..
This past month has been pretty crazy. Growing in my faith, going through really good times and really trying times. Ive learned a lot. One thing that I have never liked was being ‘the head of’ something…like being the planner. Ive always been in the background doing what was needed, being a follower. In this past month, God has been stretching me and teaching me. Teaching me how to be a leader. Although I tried backing out of a few things a couple times…it seems to reappear in a different way the next time, same thing.
I started praying about the whole Brazil 6 month thing. I am totally scared to death, but thats my flesh talking. Im scared of the unkown, leaving my comfort zone, the comforts I have hear, knowing I wont have them there. The fear of the unknown. I started praying hard. I wanted to know this internship was from God, that this IS what he wants me to do. I asked him to close the doors if its not from him. I prayed that prayer multiple times. What I thought would happen, didnt. The doors only opened wider….now its up to me to walk through them.
The fundraisers that I was starting to plan, I thought they would fail. I didnt think much about it. I had fun and still am having fun planning them. And its kinda funny, nothing happens till I hand it over to God. I get the details ready, kind of like a presentation, and I present it to God…yes its exactly like it sounds. I sit there, type everything out, do the math, the layouts…print it out. And I sit there praying, out loud. I tell God the plans. Show him the timeline or whatever I might have (Just like he is sitting there next to me) and then I give it to him. He is the manager of all my fundraisers. If its gonna happen, its only going to because He is in it. Nothing happens ever till I hand it over to him…it makes me laugh. With all the fundraisers planned now, it wasnt til I sat there and told God all about it, that things started happening! Im stoked, and amazed that God would use me to help his people in a country so far away…even here in NC, being able to love on people here that dont know Him for who he really is! He is using me at my current job..my friends are starting to ask questions!! Maybe thats why Im still there. God has a mission for me…
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