Right Where He Has Me…

So I quit my job…I felt like God was leading me to do that. Then the sewage backed up into our apartment and I ended up losing my place to live, pretty much over night. BUT then God showed up!! Im now living with a family, His step-daughter is being abused by her real father on the weekends when she goes to visit him. DSS and the cops, everyone has been called but nothing has been done to actually stop him from doing this to her. She has been being abused since she was 3 years old. She is 7 years old now. That is the EXACT age that I started getting abused by my grandfather. They were having a hard time communicating with her. She would act out and show her frustrations. It makes sense of the way I acted out and showed my frustrations to, it makes sense now. But the thing is…she calls me her best friend. We sit and talk. I let her tell me anything that she has on her heart. I know without a doubt I am at this house for a reason…for her!! I never had anyone to talk to, and the people I did, pushed me away. She has been to multiple counselors that would shut her down after she started opening up, they would no longer see her. I am here for a reason. I am here to listen to her, help her. But at the same time, God is teaching me why I acted the way I did, why no one ever understood me. No one took the time to find out why I was getting frustrated and angry. So this is a huge blessing…and hopefully I’ll be able to follow after God’s heart on this one. With following after what I felt God leading me to do, quitting my job. I have not gone without!! I’ve had one side job since I quit my job. Painting a friends house, the interior. Not knowing what was coming after that. But I havent worried at all, and Im perfectly happy. Yesterday I went to take care of things with my landlord and he had mentioned that they were going to have to hire someone to paint. I told him that I painted…he was happy!! He asked me if I would be willing to paint the interiors of the empty units in the two buildings and also at his other apartments he owned. I looked up and priced what it would be to get a professional liscensed painter to paint a 3-bed 3-bath condo with the rooms being 10×10 and the living room being a little bit bigger…they quoted me the price of $1,500!!! Thats just one unit by itself!!! I could charge $900 and still bank money!!! Even $300 a unit!!! This might be what was needed to get to Brazil….really??!! I’m not getting my hopes up and Im totally staying on God with this one….but was this why I felt like he was leading me to quit my last job??? Because something bigger was in store?? I wouldnt say something bigger….it’s more like HUGE!! Please please be praying that this would be in his will. That this is what he has for me. I could paint 6 units and have enough for Brazil?! Anyways. So yeah, thats an update for ya!

~ by justagirl07 on September 2, 2009.